Autopsy on Love? November 3rd 1995 Romantic love is the most misunderstood emotion in the universe It is not set in stone but pliable and is able to be pulled or pushed into any shape imaginable. Love at first sight is the onslaught rush of mating urges at the fore. Physical love is indeed, very strong and powerful, at times too powerful to ignore. But after the wonderful sex, what is there left? Just sleep and nothing more? What about the intimacy, the love, the caring and the sharing? Love is created by those involved Each partner must contribute. Love is self-created by each of us One does not create love for another. We create it ourselves. Love that is nurtured starts slowly and continues to grow, can be the strongest of all bonds able to withstand any force applied. Love can be tender and sweet and all things nice, it can be like a fairy-tale told. We enter into a relationship not knowing what we are getting into. We rely on each other being honest and truthful. Will you love me, as much as I will love you? Should be the question that is asked? As time passes on, the clock has been ticking the years are fast catching up those around you have got their spouses and families and you're wondering where do I fit in? Should you compromise your ideals in love and settle for something more humble? The only way to approach love is that : you are willing and keen to explore this world of love to see what you have in common, and that you can see yourself loving this person. There is no seal of guarantee that it will be a success and so if it does not work out a refund is called for. All bets are off time to separate and call the relationship off. One should not be afraid of failing in love there is never any guarantee and face the facts. You may have to go through many relationships until you can find the right one, that can last and last. Quite often it is the case, that the effort you put in, is what you get out. Your lover will have to match the effort, to counter the inbalance but it will all be worth it to have such love and dedication. At long last, love is real love is earnest, it is here at last. And so enjoy it, for a wonderful life together. The years have passed everyone by beauty outside has long since gone What is there left to carry on? The love has lasted between the elderly couple with their tender touches and their tender stares Their eyes shine brightly at each other they are lively and animated within. They know in their heart and in their mind that life has been kind they have found their companion long ago bringing a happiness previously undreamed of in most peoples' lives. Anti-Violence November 6th 1995 Violence is part of our society It is there in many ways The kids see it on the TV screens in videogames, cartoons and movies. The adults accept it too in Newspapers, Magazines and TV. It is all part of a primitive society. Dad does it to Mum Anger shown in words or fists it is the same Tempers vented, Tempers flared the result is the same. A visit down to casualty to the hospital or to the counsellor to patch things up, to fix things over. How do you stop, a repeat of this insane game From happening all over again. Violence should not be tolerated in any one's life, it is OK in fantasy, but not in real life. If you have violent urges that can destroy, do take part in non-contact sports to release it. Do not let it control you. There is no just cause that violence glorifies. Blood that is splattered is never justified. Violence and vengance can go on forever never healing and ever wounding. Peace be with you, Peace be inside you it is through peace that all things will be attainable. In this troubled, troubled world of ours Peace is the saviour who can save our souls. Go in peace, my friend with the angels help this world can be saved and take us into the next golden age. When our evolution truly begins. Conversations between Two Souls 6th December 1995 I admire you from afar Wouldn't it be nice to close the gap that exists between us. To really see what is inside our minds and inside our hearts. You are physically attractive I am drawn to you like a honey bee to your scented flower The nectar within is what I seek. Your personality outside has many facets of character but it is the soul within that would satisfy my hunger for companionship for love's nourishment I do seek. "Do not dress me in clothes I do not wear --- in which I do not fit. Be aware of what is the reality and what are your phantasie's dreams. You know me not at all - that is painfully true. I cannot fulfill your dreams or your phantasies that is the reality here. It is a negative answer I give Though I fit not your dreams Do not be disenheartened Keep on the search - for your life's true love Your beauty will be welcomed by someone you like, will turn to love One day it will be true." I listen to your answer - and interpret the meaning I shall respectfully, respect your wishes It saddens me, that you are so very sure that I am not for you As the exploration has hardly begun I cannot even pass go, pass love's first gate I cannot pursue this matter of love - any further for it is a trip not taken alone. I know life's cruel twist of fate That the lover you fancy may not fancy you. Are first impressions that important? Love at first sight Does not - always come true. Friends Friday 12 January 1996 You cannot measure a friend by any measure or means to do so would devalue the friendship. There is no constant that everyone obeys. To judge another human being is an impossible thing not to do. For we judge anything and everything everytime - everyday - everwhere. You do not live inside another human being to know what they see, hear and feel You do not know What goes on inside another's head. How they think, act and be What turmoils What decisions they face. Do not call yourself "a good friend" unless you can fulfill the claim. Happy to be in their company liking them for what they are and able to rescue them in time of need. To lose a friend is cruel indeed someone whose company you loved. You had some things in common to bridge the gap between your lives. You hope it was to have lasted but alas it was not to be. No matter how it broke up You reflect upon the happier times you cherished, you kept but they didn't value your company to keep the friendship intact. A one-sided friendship goes down fast sinking so quickly to despair. You like them so much it embarresses them no end. Can't they realise it is wholesome and clean. No expectations are held No promises given No secrets kept. Your company is good enough for me. Some friendships may not get so personal. It may be an interest or hobby shared. A lifetime hobby may link a good keen friend. From Me to You October 1995 My mouth is silent I cannot speak the words I'd like to say I cannot voice the thoughts inside my head. I am trapped within convention. Words fail to describe the emotions within. How can a few words describe how I feel One stays within the bounds of courtesy and keeps it all in. One does not speak One does not hear One does not touch One does not feel the turmoil within. Can you open your mind and let me in? Let me see the place in which you feel most comfortable in. What wonders do you have here? What treasures, what memories. What gifts have you shown no other? What experiences you have had? What people you have met? What places have you been? One cannot speak One cannot listen One cannot see One cannot think of what goes on inside another's head? We are ships that pass at night no fog horns heard no lights lighted. All is quiet inside you. Infinities of Love 1982 We are luminous beings Each coming from the same source Eons upon eons ago in time immemorial So far have we travelled in space and time Climbing the ladder of Evolution Ocassionally missing a rung But progressing nonetheless And now - we meet again In this life, at this time One Soul in two bodies The same make-up in mind. Each looked out upon the world And formed their own Universe And now, the two Universes meet Overlapping like some Venn diagram Let me explore your world, And you - mine. Let us explore the outer-most reaches And the depths of our being. Forming a bright star of love and warmth Shining a light to lead others To a blissful world of ecstasy. Yes, we may put on our rose-tinted glasses Aware that, we put them on ourselves. It changes a drab world to one of wonder Our senses are renewed And see the world with open eyes. My confidence in my being is restored And now I venture out, meek no longer To project myself as I am, as I want to be. And so dearest one, I love thee truly Said one twin-soul to the other. The game of love and life revolves Continually on its own motions Circumstances and environments Merged together a melting pot That brought us close together The hand of chance is that of fate that allows us to meet again Across time, across oceans, across continents. Our letters are long sessions of interplay Comparing the sharpness of our perceptions And the unity of our thoughts. Are we not forged of the same steel With sapphires to behold! Yet we are matched. Your needs, are my needs Your goals, my goals. The sparks fly across the world With our logic in love And right acts of behaviour The puppets talk to each other Dimly aware of their higher being But noticing the pulls and tugs On the invisible strings Such illogical behaviour! We cry from time to time At the actions we see within ourselves. You always, being a free agent Choose to be an individual One in your own right I, with an open mind Will not bar the opportunity For the essence of your being To grow further upwards. You are a part of me An individual apart Your colours, your attitudes affect me in so many ways. We meet in our dreams in travels beyond time Dream classes in learning And fantasies in reality returning to earth again Each to our separate beds With dream memories faded Oh, how I wish you were beside me now to touch, to kiss For were we not Made for each other to be in lovers' embrace The stars shine their lights Against the black backdrop of space But ours has hardly begun One light in two bodies The twin-souls finally meet. Interest of Life Tuesday 19 March 1996 Our interest drives us for it is life. Without interests our life would be so boring :- No point in living No goals to reach No dreams dreamt No life to live No one to love No one to die for No one to save No one to care for. Can you make any sense of these words? Wrapped up is truth plain to see. Our will and our interest drives us without which we cannot live. The message of life is to have a journey to take. Some goals to strive for it may be impossible to reach to light the way. Humble goals are easier to achieve :- Someone to love Someone to care for Someone who loves you are goals worth striving for indeed. A Poem for You March 1996 We'll start off as friends as we step into the future together. The world is a much nicer place knowing you are there. Let me know your feelings Your passions, your loves and hates and why you are you? What makes you special? You being you. I give not false promises I do not exaggerate the truth I give not lies I hope you understand this well and can appreciate the beauty in truth. It's like waking up in the morning and liking someone for what she is. Before the make-up is applied before she is dressed up. Being content with someone the way she is. A Whisper in your Ear Thursday 28 March 1996 I shall not give you promises I cannot keep nor tell you lies. I like to be your friend always. Do not use me as a doormat a disposable friend for that is not wise. I can be trusted you can confide in me your dreams, your wishes. I'll not laugh nor chastise you from afar because if you want a true friend I am waiting here for your reply. I am sincere Do not be alarmed I am not trying to be smart. Mind-games I do not engage in nor do I play on emotions of the heart. I stay clear of baggage that can drag you down and enjoy the best things in life. They need not cost the earth. To raise you to greater heights where your spirit roams free and join others in like company. I salute you from afar I have been waiting for you all my life I do not know what the future will hold for both of us? What relationship we may have? and whether we'll ever meet? Will be up to the Gods themselves and those who guide us. You can trust in me as I will trust in you that we may help one another. I am not an ordinary bloke with everyday thoughts know this well. I could be the lover of your dreams? Maybe not? because dreams can be so wild. Perhaps - your day dreaming lover may be more apt. The possibilities at this early stage are not defined because truly I do not know you. It's time to bid 'Adieu'. Here's to some interesting letters in future? I hope this will at least, come true. There is no doubt in anyone's eyes you are beautiful! but what concerns me most is the beauty within? Do you have the strength of character to be my wonderwoman? A beautiful woman with a beautiful mind is an elusive dream of mine. A femme fatale with good intentions is my phantasie come true. Why? Saturday 30 March 1996 Even though my love poems were written for another. There is still much to be learned from others reading them - like you! Whether for enjoyment or enlightenment of the human condition I hope you will enjoy them? Read them aloud for maximum effect that for which they were intended. They show love from the other side females are not the only ones to feel the gambit of emotions. The pains and sorrows of the heart the joys and happiness, love can bring. Ideal love is hard to find as in "Infinities of Love." So pure, so true Can you find anyone so ideal in this world who value you for being you. Making the romantic approach to a prospective lover's heart is a difficult task. "The Game of Love" illustrates this clearly. My sad poems : "Apology to You" "Forgiveness I Seek" "Misery" and "The Sorry Tale" recapture the disappointments that happen when love travels down the wrong path gets lost and forgotten like a child. Love is timeless Love is real it is attainable of the quality you wish of the quantity you require If you can find your heart's desire upon this earth. My ill-fated love poems voice the motives of lovers everywhere : their dreams, hopes and desires of being together of not being lonely anymore to bring sunshine and happiness into their lives once more. I am wary of writing love poems now you can understand why... To fail in love is a hard knock to take you wonder if you can recover your optimism before the shock. However one day I will find the right woman who can understand what I write and who can love me for what I am. Human frailities, weaknesses and all. The Reply Saturday 11 May 1996 Confide in me my dear - have no fear I am always here to listen to you so well. The miseries in this world can be so cruel and turned to kind as we learn from life's hard knocks. Through understanding - tolerance strengthens our minds to recognise the warning signs we should have seen. We can learn from ourselves and those around us as well as television and screen in fact and fiction. The media can educate us to be ourselves. Learn to grow up. Dreams of a child carried through a lifetime can be shattered by cruel adults. Who cling to life's vanities of beauty thin and worthless cash. Money cannot buy everything. Travel along life's journey. Discover yourself. Be aware of your strengths and weaknesses. Strengthen your weakness to become a strength. Mould yourself into the character you desire. I am still here to listen to your story. You can tell me anything you desire. I listen with an open heart so that I can understand who you are. It is good to know you my sweet love It is OK to be yourself. The spirituality I write about in my poetry is in all of us. Believers and disbelievers alike. In all of us is the soul within. Our true character, our self. We can only be happy in this life IF we can be who we are. Live up to your potential and be ourselves. Enjoy the company you keep and enjoy life. ME mid-November 1995 I contemplate on the mysteries of life to better understand this universe, we live in to focus upon what is important in life. The simple things that makes us happy. To be aware of those black holes we can easily get pulled into which can take a lifetime, to leave behind. The three main evils of our modern society which has been with us, since time began. Are: smoking, drinking and drugs. All are drugs that can drown the human spirit, within us that may initially take you up, some unseen heights only to leave you, living some low life. Drug dependency is not a pretty picture to view where to stay normal, one needs a drug to live. Prevention is always better than the cure, the warning should be - do not try this! It can ruin your life. The other thing to understand, is the power of your mind If you look after it, and exercise it well you can use it, to do some magical tricks. Such as doing that, what the drugs can do. Making you feel relaxed, confident, happy, being the real you. Let not your mind get rusty, let it not go hungry You have talents there, exercise them they will only get better, if you make the effort to see what you can do well. I am humble, honest and wholesome there are no dark shadows, behind me. I do not take part in anything sinister or strange. My mind may wander into strange worlds and is, the only strange thing, about me. I believe in living an ordinary life living as safe as can be. Vindictiveness is not inside me nor any negative qualities, such as spite and malice. I value the good qualities in life such as honesty, truthfulness and punctuality. I may be simple to read like a book by it's cover I hide myself not. My life is nothing extraordinary. It is a simple but fulfilled life I seek. There are many blank pages inside me waiting to be written. By what pen or hand I do not know? As to the simple things in life that will make you happy. You know the answers already? To be in the company of : someone to love, someone who cares and someone who loves you. Makes you healthy, wealthy and wise. Observations 4th December 1995 We live in a funny world where the gap between the rich and poor is very great. So too, the spread of beauty, talent and intelligence in all of us. Some babies are born with a silver spoon in it's mouth. Others with great beauty or intelligence. Some with talent so amazing it's difficult to measure. Some are born with the odds stacked against us. Why do we struggle at all? An ordinary life can be so hard when we lack the basic upbringing of a stable, loving family. Being underprivileged is not a pretty picture to live. To struggle endlessly with no horizon in sight is a sad life to live. In the eyes of God we are all equal. No one is left out in the cold. We are all welcome in the house of God and are greeted with loving arms. So too it should be on this earth here and now - Let not children go hungry or they will turn into thieves of the night taking what they have not. Let not children be bored or they will seek entertainment elsewhere in smoking, drinking and drugs. Let not children go unloved or they will seek to destroy society destroying that which failed them. Let not children be robbed of a future or they will fail with their lives living in misery - they cannot see beyond. Love is our only hope for the future Love will heal and mend all Love will set our souls to rest. Love will turn us around Love will let us do - what we do best. Apply Within 25? September 1996 The Wisdom of the Ancients is accessible not lost forever. The knowledge you seek is located in some book on library shelf or second hand book store or someone's private library whether out of print or new. Or maybe in some newspaper article tucked away in some collection because newspapers carry the strangest stories of fact or fiction? Do not take the view that UFOs do not exist and life after death has never been proven? It shows how closed your mind is and how small the world you travel in. It is OK to ask for proof to separate tales and lies from the truth. To verify that which is true. Peoples' accounts do matter it is not a mass illusion what people do experience it all adds up to data to weigh in favour of a phenomenon being true. It is good to ask the question Where did we come from? From the womb of matter through some course of uninterrupted evolution via infinite time or more likely through a forcing shed of forced evolution by some cosmic hand not of God directly but indirectly through another being's hand. We are the result of an experiment to breed a new breed of Man. We are supposedly the third generation of humans upon this earth to dominate the planet to plant our seed and thrive as a civilization as a new breed of man but have we learned anything in our journey if we do not know where did we come from? The illumination of the human soul is a journey worth taking to understand our life upon this earth and ask what does it serve? Only kindness will reap the rewards we seek of spiritual understanding and emotional health to bring to us a life worth living. The words I write are beginning to repeat themselves like some prayer or rosary understand the meanings of my poems and it will be very clear what I know and do not. Can your mind take it all in and understand that what this universe offers? Understanding 23 November 1995 Romance and friendship are branches of the same tree, - the tree of love Why then? When one breaks, the other falls? Cutting off contact with one, once loved? Friendship is often misunderstood when you genuinely like someone for what they are No strings are attached at all. A similar spirit should be welcomed with open arms. It's nice to feel you're not alone on this earth. Romance is the most fragile of all human emotions At times, so impossible to find. But so necessary to make one feel that life is worth living. There is much, much misunderstanding about sex. The physical expression of love on an intimate level. Sure there are people screwed up about what sex is. They have sex on the brain and do not understand what it is and can do. It is more than a reproductive act. And there are few that know that sex can take them up some spiritual height on a fabulous journey to imagination's delight. It seems, there is a loss of face and feelings of embarressment when there is rejection or failure of a relationship. We live no longer in the caveman days Haven't we travelled much further from our humble beginnings. To understand our feelings and able, to control our emotions? It takes two to take part in any relationship, whether as friend, acquaintance or lover? Let us not all be strangers it makes the world seem colder When you know so few people in so few circles. Come on, evolve! Good friendships can survive good and bad times equally well Do not underestimate people. Give them a chance to show themselves to see how good friends, they can be. Videogames - the new Entertainment Media Thursday 15 February 1996 Cursed by parents as timewasters made the stereotype of video nasties. Videogames have long been held in ill repute by those who do not understand this new entertainment age. The negatives are there plain to see Violence, blood and gore they are not present in every game but often than not are. The positives can be stacked up higher making videogames a new messiah. To lead young minds into new technology. A computer lies underneath the glitzy graphics programmed by a games designer to be fun, playable and addictive. There are rewards for beating the game the skill, the memory, luck and notoriety. Hand and eye coordination are required the same as those used by fighter pilots and formula 1 drivers. Whether you beat the game or the game beats you. Young minds will question : 'How is a videogame designed and made?' This leads to technical questions about hardware and software design. The use of graphics and animation, sound effects and music 3D graphics and modelling. How is a videogame written? Leads you into the world of computers and programming. To understand how videogames are made is very technical indeed. It can educate a child for the world of tomorrow Where fantasies of today can be realities tomorrow. They can become more real with virtual reality. Videogames can lead to computer games, simulations and strategies. Here, the brain is used more as you enter these complex three dimensional worlds you thought impossible to experience, taking you to new horizons in fantasy. You cannot ignore computers these days they are everywhere. Controlling microwave ovens, washing and ATM machines at Lotto shops and supermarkets. They will be in the cars of tomorrow making them safer in driving and crashes. Almost everything these days are designed with the aid of one, including writing poetry. A new industry {added : 2 August 1996} can earn more than a hit movie. It encompasses the basic elements of film and television production : good ideas in writing Preproduction : planning and forethought costume and property design. The programmers are the directors and actors used with motion capture. 3D Artists are brought in to draw the people and costumes design the cars, environment and scenery. Playtesters check out the last details making sure the player doesn't get stuck and the game is neither too easy nor too hard. But in the end it is the players themselves who decides whether a game is way cool or just another boring videogame. Innovation succeeds in this multi-media world to give an experience so real it's like a real-life fantasy.